At last, I got the new life.

I'm really happy rite now and I feel so grateful to Allah.
at last, I got my new life that I always hope for.
this is mean I old enough to face this new life.
a new life as a career women.
homaiiii career women?
it's look I'd really old enough!
I have to do everything by myself.
prepare my pakaian, makan minum, top up and so on.
awwww.. look kinda independent but I believe that I can do it easily.
rina kan! sape tak kenal?!
gonna miss my old life.
hidup yang tak ade arah tuju.
dah abis belajar but menganggur je tau.
belajar tinggi tinggi pon lastly keje bukan dlm bidang yg diceburi.
bongok je.
so funny and bodoh gila.
haha
but, Alhamdulilah sgt because I got this job.
even the salary not too much but it's make me satisfied enough.
I'm 21 years old and have a career now.
everything changed!
I can't be like before.
playful, buang masa tak tentu arah and banyak lagi lah perkara lagha that I did.
start from tomorrow I must learn how to use time wisely.
well, I'm not rina yang dulu.
I'll become a new rina.
but I can't promise that I'll change everything bout me.
mana boleh!
nanti I become a plastic person.
ewwww, that's not me.
okay lah, I got to go.
I have a date with my gf.
she want to accompany me to prepare all the things before I'm starting work tomorrow.
okay, bye.

Ryna Radi

dear my future husband..
I miss you.
when we'll meet?
don't be naughty yeah.
I love you so much.
haha

Looking for a new life.

I know it is too hard to face the reality of our life.
but trust me, you will get big rewards for each of your pain.
just be patience, the time will come!
but we don't know when and where.
as usual I just good in saying these but honestly,
I can't be patience to face all the difficulty.
I need some strength.
some strength from someone I need.
I miss my old life so much but at the same time,
I need to create a new one.
I can't live with old memories forever.
I want new sweet moments and make it better than before.
pray for my success dunia dan akhirat yeah.
I wish I'll be strong enough in my new life without a guy that I called LOVE.
gwa harap sesangat gwa kuat semangat utk hari hari yang akan datang.
sometimes, I feel some people always try to down me even though my own family.
not all of my family members but certain.
babi tak babi lah but trust me I hate those people who are acting good and perfect in front you
but at your behind they always talking bad bout you and make others hate you.
why ya Allah I got this useless person for my life?
kalau setakat perangai sial macam ni, I don't need them in my life.
I know it is not good to talking like this bout my own family but the truth is, yes they are!
mcm gampang sial!
babi pon tak perangai mcm ni.
eh, jantan pukimak!
lu dah boleh mampus dari hidup gwa.
gwa bukannya hidup dari bakti lu pon.
lu jangan nak sial sangat dgn orang,
ingat sikit lu tu dah beranak pinak.
we're live in a world where we can't avoid from karma.
remember that!
mati hidup balik sekali pon gwa tak kan pernah terima lu as my brother anymore!
don't bother about me after this.
please.
I hate you damn enough.
just care bout your own business lah babi.

happy with them :D

tau tak ?
gwa ngah kat kampung ni.
kat Manjung, Perak umah kak long gwa.
puas hati and rase so bahagia okay, to be with them.
macam macam kerenah, anak anak buah gwa, adik sengal gwa dan kesemuanya.
dah gomol gomol dah si kembar tu sampai dorang nangis.
hahahaha, pic tak sempat amik sebab gwa gila excited kelek si kembar tu.
comel gila kot !
phewww, geram.
sementara kak long gwa dah angkat Canon EOS600D, gwa pon hentam ah camera dia.
I asked my niece and nephew to teach me how to use that awesome camera.
well, benda mahal gwa batak sikit.
kehkehkeh.
bongok adik gwa ni, pose kemain gampang lagi.
hahahahaha, all of them so cute.
gwa pakai kain batik tu yang tak tahan.
baru perasan tak bawak balik track suit sekali, so gwa sebat kak long punya kain batik.
dengan tak sedar dirinye, anak buah gwa snap pic kemain siot lagi.
gwa dah ckp jgn snap sampai nampak kain batik.
but I realized something which is I look kinda cute in kain batik.
bhahahahaha, dang !
so upload kat fb pic gwa ngan adik bongok gwa tu.
kat sini gwa upload pic gwa pakai kain batik, kenangan sampai mati ni.
nanti nak tunjuk kat anak anak gwa.
gwa nak cakap, "ni lah first time your mummy wearing kain batik ! so nice kan ? mummy tau sayang.."
hahahahaha, dah nak tido ah.
penat ketawa ngan dorang ni.
bye peeps !

MALAYSIA, you're the one !

hokay !
jangan emosi, jangan gelabah.
relax relax..
tarik nafas, lepas..
tarik, tahan, hokay lepassss.
peh, atas bawah melepas gwa ni.
tak senonoh.
makkkkk bau, boleh mati kejang.
eh eh, dah merepek tu.
ah sukati gwa ah.
blog gwa.. kahkahkah. nate berok.
okay, don't waste the time anymore and lets enjoy the story..
jeng jeng jeng..
Malaysia ni panas okay !
realiti, tp tlg lah belajar bersyukur sikit rina.
haish, perangai tak semenggah.
peduli ape gwa.
okay, even I'm a girl but I love football/soccer so much.
tp gwa tak bangsat mana sbb gwa tak bangga ngan team Europe sgt.
layan sikit sikit cukup.
ni ha, team Malaysia lagi powerrrr.

yeah ! hidup harimau malaya.
I know, I'm not good in soccer but I'm too addicted on it.
sekolah gwa tak ada soccer.
mmg ah, sekolah perempuan mana ada soccer.
I'm just hockey, handball, softball and volleyball player.
okay back to the topic.
our Malaysia team always good on my eyes.
sbb apa ? sbb dorang satu satunya yg bantu menaikkan nama Malaysia dlm bidang bola sepak ni.
korang yg suka kondem dorang tu dah cukup bagus ke ?
setakat jaguh kampung, usop santorian boleh beat korang.
wahahahahah ! kurang ajonye dak rina ni.
korang tau tak ?
mesti tak tau.
meh aku kasi tau..
player kita tu tak harap ape pon dari penyokong, dorang cuma harap sokongan padu dan bukannya cemuhan saat mereka menghadapi kekalahan.
gwa bukan cakap kosong, gwa tau lah sbb gwa memahami hati player ni semua sbb gwa pon penah main sukan jgk.

rindu nak kena bebel ngan coach mcm ni masa jd player hoki dulu.

haa ! korang tu ha.
korang yg suka down kan orang ni hebat ke ?
main sampai mana ?
ade penah score mcm player kita tu ?
tu sbb nak kutuk org jgn membabi buta je.
haram betol.
yesterday, I have chat with one of Malaysia's soccer team coaches who is coach Kris Yong.
he is friendly okay, even I never meet or talk with him.
after a while I get bored facebook-ing, I saw coach uploaded few photos for his Raya on news feed.
then, with my full of shameless I start to chat with him.

hahahahah, I never expect that he will reply my chat :D

he is nice kan ?

I am so kembang when he said like that. bhahahahaha !

gedik tak bertempat kan gwa ni ? kehkehkeh.

handsome betol mat saleh ni. mak ! rina nak kawen ngan omputih tau. ah, lari topik pulak. okay, let's continue reading my chat with coach Kris.

he is so funny kan ? hahahahaha

gwa pon tembak ah dia. hehehehe.. coach coach. lawak !

dia pon pakat gelak. kehkehkeh.. kalau boleh jumpa cantik jugak tu ! gwa nak jumpa ngan satu team Harimau Malaya sekali. demand lak aih gwa ni =..=

nice katenya chatting ngan gwa ? hahahaha..

so, nampak kan guys.
dorang cuma perlukan semangat dan sokongan dari kita rakyat Malaysia ni.
jgn nak poyo sgt konon ultras team bola pasukan lain sedangkan tempat tumpah darahku ni haram korang nak sokong.
belajar sedar diri sikit, okay ?
lagi satu jgn bercakap guna otak burung kasawari tau ?
guna akal manusia yg Allah dah anugerahkan tu.
okay, peeps ?
nak anti gwa ke nak kutuk maki hamun pon gwa tak kesah.
pergi mampus sama lu orang.
haa, ade lg satu benda gwa nak tunjuk.
tp nanti ah, lain masa.
kang korang ckp gwa perasan pulak.
hahahahaha ! okay bye kiddo.

Alhamdulilah, thanks Allah and beloved mom.

hey..
tau tak ?
mesti tak tau kan.
okay, let the story begin.
gwa tak kesah orang nak cemuh gwa dari dulu sampai skang.
sebab gwa perasan, setiap kali lepas dorang dah penat nak bercakap cakap lagi dorang akan senyap.
bisu agaknya.
gwa tak suka nak down kan bangsa gwa sendiri.
but people out there, you must know that persons who like to see you down adalah bangsa kau sendiri.
trust me guys !
gwa bukan cakap suka suka.
pompang pompang mcm tin kosong.
dari sekolah rendah sampai saat ni, gwa kerap nampak kejatuhan orang Melayu atas perilaku bangsanya sendiri.
haaa ! see, how terrible the reality are.
ehemmmmmm.
okay, when I'm in primary school ustazah or guru kelas ada berbual bual ngan mak.
talking bout me..
ah, ngumpat lah tu.
then after that, mak asked me..
"Rina, engko ni tak nak belajo pakai baju kurung ke ?"
haaaaaa, then I answered.. "kan susah nak berjalan kalau pakai baju kurung, lagi pun mak ngan abah selalu dtg amik rina naik motor. susah nak kangkang.."
that time, I'm in standard 5.
tgk lah tu dah darjah 5 tak reti nak berbaju kurung.
then mak asked me another question, "kenapa engko berkawan ngan Cina India je ?"
haish. meh gwa jawab, "mak, kawan MELAYU semua kejap kejap tak nak kawan. kalau kawan pon, dorang kawan tipu tipu".
then mak diam je.
okay, now that you see guys ?
why must orang Melayu become like this ?
sebab gwa banyak main main ?
sebab gwa dari keluarga yg sederhana ?
atau dgn lebih tepat gwa bodoh tak mcm anak Melayu yg lain ?
FUCK OFF.
gwa buktikan kat mak, semua demi mak.
masa pertengahan darjah 5 tu gwa dah mtk baju kurung kat mak.
gwa belajar pakai tudung, even waktu subjek Agama Islam je.
hey ! nampak tak kat situ ?
gwa belajar perlahan perlahan tau.
haaa ! naik je darjah 6, fuh gwa tak nak ckp besar ah kan.
gwa naik pentas amik anugerah kecemerlangan.
tgh tahun gwa dpt no 2 then akhir tahun dpt no 1.
okay, chop ! kenape dah darjah 5 pon gwa still pakai skirt ?
ah, standard lah.
English school + Girl's School.
bebas weh ! masa PJK lagi lah syok.
tak payah malu malu.
tak ada jantan kat sekolah tu.
berkat berkawan rapat ngan bangsa lain, gwa dapat kejayaan tu dan of course utk mak.
kat sini gwa nak ckp jgn igt bangsa korang nak jatuhkan korang, then korang boleh iyekan je.
lawan lah balik !
that's why gwa hidup je kalau tak ada kwn Melayu pon.
sikit tak heran.
that is when I'm in standard 6.
bila dah naik secondary school, sama jgk.
mak hantar the same school.
bkn lah sekolah rendah tu jgk, maksudnya sekolah menengahnya lah.
I'm so happy to be one of students from this great school !
gwa montel, montel jgk.
demok tu, demok jgk.
kokurikulum *betol ke ejanya tu ?* aktif kot.
maybe sebab terikut ikut kakak kakak gwa.
masing masing kakak gwa tinggalkan sekolah tu dgn nama yg terpahat as olahragawati.
ade yg main hoki, bola baling and olahraga sampai peringkat kebangsaan, antarabangsa.
peh peh peh.. bangga siot.
tapi mcm biase gwa pon join main hoki ngan bola baling.
best ! sangat sangat.
tp mostly org Melayu lah for those two sports tu.
budak Cina ramai main basketball.
walau mcm mana pon gwa meningkat dewasa, gwa selalu beringat ngn bangsa Melayu ni.
sbb mengata org kemain lancau lancang mulut tu.
mcm tau semua cerita.
and kalau you all nak tau, yg paling suka nak rosakkan member sdri adalah bangsa sendiri.
busuk hati kan ?
jahat kan, keji.
puih ! tuih.
so nak berkawan tu kena always beware.
igt, backstabbers always near you.
and bila dah besar and menjadi siapa gwa skang, gwa dpt belajar sesuatu yg paling bermakna which is hidup ni jgn nak racist sgt.
jgn nak perkauman sgt, sbb apa yg korang percaya dan harapkan sgt tu lah sampah sebenarnya.
take note, peeps.
why until now I really hate to villagers ?
sbb PEMIKIRAN dorg.
jgn nak mrh gwa, gwa tau apa yg gwa cakapkan ni.
mak org kampung jgk, abah pon sama.
umah family gwa pon kat Kampung Bahagia tu ha, Teluk Intan.
tp mak tak suka nak bercampur sgt ngan org kampung.
why ? because my mom said, they love to talking bout others.
pantang nampak salah org.
mcm anak anak dorang dah baik sgt.
tak ke FUCK OFF namanya ?
so skang, pandai pandai lah korang bwk diri.
igt jgn nak racist sgt..
org kita pon bkn bagus sgt.

Hate to say this, but I really misses u so much.

Dear ex,
I miss you.
OMG so hina rite still miss our ex ?
dia sikit pon tak ingat langsung kat gwa ni..
they already have their own happiness life, great love life story but me..
I'm still misses him and can't forget bout him.
bodohnya.
yes, a word that really suit on me.
kalau lah gwa boleh delete everything yang ada dlm otak ni kan bagus.
cibai ah.
gwa benci lah feeling skang ni, mcm sial.
babi................
oi, stupid feeling.
boleh pergi mampus jauh jauh tak ?
gwa tak nak lu bertempek kat hati gwa skang.