Looking for a new life.

I know it is too hard to face the reality of our life.
but trust me, you will get big rewards for each of your pain.
just be patience, the time will come!
but we don't know when and where.
as usual I just good in saying these but honestly,
I can't be patience to face all the difficulty.
I need some strength.
some strength from someone I need.
I miss my old life so much but at the same time,
I need to create a new one.
I can't live with old memories forever.
I want new sweet moments and make it better than before.
pray for my success dunia dan akhirat yeah.
I wish I'll be strong enough in my new life without a guy that I called LOVE.
gwa harap sesangat gwa kuat semangat utk hari hari yang akan datang.
sometimes, I feel some people always try to down me even though my own family.
not all of my family members but certain.
babi tak babi lah but trust me I hate those people who are acting good and perfect in front you
but at your behind they always talking bad bout you and make others hate you.
why ya Allah I got this useless person for my life?
kalau setakat perangai sial macam ni, I don't need them in my life.
I know it is not good to talking like this bout my own family but the truth is, yes they are!
mcm gampang sial!
babi pon tak perangai mcm ni.
eh, jantan pukimak!
lu dah boleh mampus dari hidup gwa.
gwa bukannya hidup dari bakti lu pon.
lu jangan nak sial sangat dgn orang,
ingat sikit lu tu dah beranak pinak.
we're live in a world where we can't avoid from karma.
remember that!
mati hidup balik sekali pon gwa tak kan pernah terima lu as my brother anymore!
don't bother about me after this.
please.
I hate you damn enough.
just care bout your own business lah babi.